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I'm bored... no one is here to bright my day up.. Well I understand. Why should someone bother to make me smile.  I'll just listen Sirenia and sit here in the darkness. Yea. Haven't got nothing better to do anyway.

Ok. I got bored and wanted to write down my thoughts. Not forbbiden yet for me. Because I'm bored then don't make a big deal that I talk some shit.

Anyway. I have one hard period in my life again. Tired of making happy face to my parents and family. Every time when someone hurts me (and that happends often) part of my heart turns to stone. If it goes on like this.. soon I wont be able to love anymore. I wont be able to smile, to give anything more than hate. I don't want that. I have some people who love me but if others continune hurting me then I'm afride that I can't love my friends back. I'm sorry if it happends. I'll try to keep one part of my heart only for you so no one can take you away from me. I love you my babies. You are the best things what has ever happend to me: Ana, Michela, Erika, Aysha, Joshua and Steffi. I love you forever. Deep inside I still love you. 

"You will never realize what darkness lyes inside, inside my mind."